more about me
I am a 25 year old human who has spent the majority of the last five years exploring my own patterns and beliefs in an attempt to feel at home with myself. I’ve reached a season of sorts, where I’ve found - and stuck with - tools, systems, and supports that have cued my nervous system that I am, indeed safe to show up authentically. My body is healthy. I rarely get sick. My mind is clear. I feel creative. My heart is open, and I love freely.
I have the best parents and grew up in an environment that was supportive and loving - how then, did I find myself at 20 years old, feeling utterly and completely disassociated from my mind, my body, and my spirit? My ego ran the show. I was quietly scared, depressed and anxious the majority of the time. I worked out, studied hard, smoked weed, drank alcohol, and did any and everything to avoid feeling - without knowing it. Classic byproduct of the late-stage capitalistic system we are nurtured within.
I felt completely stuck. When I wasn’t running or numbing my lived experience, I was faced with the constant spiral of thoughts - most of the time manically attempting to find ways to prove my self worth. My most effortful attempt in doing so was getting into The Ohio State University on a full-ride scholarship. A dream that I had since the earliest years of my life. I learned within the first semester, however, that goals achieved change nothing if they are rooted in ego. The journey really is everything.
During my second to last semester of my undergrad, the classic story of unrequited heartbreak was the catalyst that introduced me to the need to figure out a way to understand myself more.
Got a therapist, and used my ADHD and depression diagnosis as a readily available justification as to why things weren’t working out for me. Got prescribed a stimulant and was excited to fix myself.
I started with listening to podcasts, which led me to bio-hacking. I got a job at a wellness studio (by some divine intervention) and started cold-plunging and using the sauna to work with my dopamine system (for free). To build a sense of resiliency in my nervous system. I found myself, for the first time, in environments that felt authentic. No matter how much my ego hated it.
Everything changed when I found yoga through a co-worker. For the first time in my life, I was met with a space that quieted my constantly thinking, scared thoughts. Uncertainty became full of wonder. I learned how to feel, how to cry, and how to show up. The practice began to build my psychological immune system without knowing it. I discovered that the body is the foundation of the mind.
In time, the community that I began to form a co-dependence on and feel a sense of support (my job) was no longer part of my day-to-day. I had to return to the drawing board. My ego rushed in and found safety/security in two jobs that eventually burnt me out. Stopped showing up to class all-together. Let the dream of graduating die. I too, had gotten to the point where the side-effects from my medication, and my understanding of functional medicine led me to quit taking my medication cold turkey. At the same time, I decided to quit vaping, an addiction I had used since I was 15. My dopamine system was crashed, I was drowning in debt, and I felt completely lost. I still had not learned how to feel my feelings or care for my body, and although I was making progress, felt completely alone. Separated. I left my apartment in Columbus, stopped practicing yoga, and moved back home. Defeated. Lost. Completely stuck.
Money has always been a massive fear-driven insecurity, and that makes sense.
In the world that we live in, income = safety. Money = experience.
So I began to work. Got the first job I could working on the ramp at the airport. To distract. I then quit and moved to a corporate job (which my ego was convinced would bring me all the worth that I needed). Spent almost a year on-call 24/7 making the most money I’d ever made. Still, I felt like I was masking my true self daily.
My spirit felt snuffed out. It felt like I was taking steps back, away from what my intuition was asking me to do. Even though I was eating healthy, working out daily, and outwardly appearing to be relatively happy and successful, when I would fall asleep at night, I was met with this wobbly feeling. Eventually, I left, after playing around with the idea of moving to Europe. Stayed in Portugal for a month, before returning home.
I found a therapist online and started seeing her weekly. She specializes in internal family systems and EMDR, but I’d really just vent for an hour straight. Always wished there was more time to workshop. The practice allowed me to see just how powerful expressing thought is. I had journaled before, but for whatever reason, being heard, hearing my own voice, worked like magic in seeing just how much of a role my own self-perceptions and self-victimization were playing in my perceived self-suffering. After I listened to intuition to begin talk-therapy, next up was quitting alcohol. It was never a real problem, but still, intuition said to do it. Boy did this give me energy I hadn’t known I needed.
My intuition, now, had time and space to begin to increase the volume of it’s voice. I found myself (miraculously) working at another wellness studio, where I had access to the sauna and cold plunge again. I began to feel centered once more. Built relationships with a community of like-minded, health-driven individuals, and was re-introduced to my yoga practice through a member there.
Eventually, my intuition asked me to study to become a yoga teacher. I listened. Such a seemingly small act - I know. But it was the first time, maybe in my whole life, that I truly took a risk in the face of financial uncertainty, and decided to take an action that would honor a deep desire. Yoga teacher training changed my life, and from there, it’s been a practice of listening and taking action. No matter how small. I began finding desires and curiosities that my intuition had been begging for me to take, and with each time I honored the ask, I was met with growth and opportunity. With fulfillment and joy.
On my 24th birthday, a day before I graduated my yoga teacher training, I got fired from my wellness job, after honoring intuitions ask to receive more money for the work I was doing in managing the studio. Part of me felt lost, but this time I knew that in order to find clarity, I could begin taking action on the things that occupied the most brain space.
Long story short, I now find myself living the life I spent years dreaming about. I am now almost two years sober from alcohol. I no longer use weed as a way to numb and avoid. I moved back to Columbus in November 2025, after a dream-job offering found it’s way to me. I now teach yoga at AYA Yoga - the studio where I first practiced. I am in the best shape of my life and honor the natural rhythms of resting and exerting. I am surrounded friends and environments that support my authentic self. I am disciplined (really devoted) to nurturing my body, feeling my feelings, facing my fears, and telling my truths. I finally see all of my dreams, and have tons of them.
One of my dreams is to one-day own my own yoga studio. Another dream is of writing books, making podcasts, and my big dream is to one day direct a film based on my experiences and the stories i collect from others. I could go on.
Within all those, though, the root is being around a community who shares love, honesty, and faith for the earth, consciousness, life in all its forms. In seeing all those, I understand that I carry my self with me along the journey. No dream fulfilled will change how I feel. The here and now is where the magic happens.
I enjoy exploring philosophy, new/old-age spirituality and am addicted to honoring my intuition and caring for my vessel.
I love to go on walks outside, my dog rhody, I love cooking, making art, listening to all sorts of music, writing, listening to audio books and podcasts, I love landscaping and plants, I love daily rituals and ceremony, I love meditation and breathwork, cold plunging, the sauna, I could go on and on. I love my life. My favorite book is Shantaram. Favorite movie is Amélie. Two of my favorite words are Surrender and Saudade.
Most recently: (very) excited about Alan Watts, Zen thought, and Taoism. Pickling Red Onions. Running. Katonah. Aum (Sanskrit) and the power of vibration.
I feel blessed to have tons of free time during this season of life, and intuition is now asking me to bring this dream of mine (of helping people navigate uncertainty and care for their body and mind) into reality. In large part, by reflecting on my own journey, and seeing just how vital the people along the way were in my own growth. In understanding that healing cannot happen in isolation. We are social beings and I so believe that by optimizing our bodies, by being seen and heard by other people, our spirit can commune with our intellect and give us pace to create, move and connect.
If you’ve made it this far, you might care to know: I have a Taurus Sun, Aquarius Moon and Aries Rising. I am a Manifesting Generator 1/3. Overall, great guy.
I still see my ego. I still fuck up. I still get lost in controlling, and lose sight of the power of surrendering into intuitive action. But with each rep, I build the metaphorical muscle of honoring the truth. The times I’m met with pain and dissonance are often after I’ve chosen - subconsciously or not - to play into fear, to avoid my intuitive directions. Or to keep the constant chatter of the mind inside, instead of sharing and expressing. And that’s okay. It’s a whole lot easier when your body is healthy and your mind is clear. When the internal narrative is loving and supportive.
Lastly, I’ve arrived at the belief, the felt-sense that there is no actual point of arrival. No final “point” or level we can reach. This is a constant evolution. A continuous practice. A choice to be here - now. To steep in the uncertainty and play with what we’ve got.
I intend to be of service here; humbly with curiosity and an open heart. Like you, I am love. I am here now, to help. Whatever that may look like.
Looking forward to connecting with you :)